imperfect white devil

semakin lamak aku bercuti di rumah semakin aku sukakan ketenangan yg aku dapat disitok....syukur gilak..balit kali tok memberi rahmat yg tidak terhingga sebab aku dapat realize banyak benda yang i should change.
this is not me anymore,used to be...

aku sik maok ketenangan tok pergi..biarlah aku harungi papun juak.aku akan cuba.


hati yang merintih sikda yg tauk tapi sikpa..kedak rasa kopi,pahit,nang pahit tapi nyaman di minum dengan terasa juak manisnya sikit-sikit..yalah best..nikmatnya bila dapat rasa kegembiraan bila kita udah ditimpak bala berkali-kali... kita semua pejuang dalam kita sik sedar. berjuang untuk sesuap nasik mun sikla berjuang untuk bernafas ajakla iboh crita yg lain..bila dikenang banyak lagik orang yang jauh lebih susah dari kita tapi kinek tok aku try slalu ingatkan dirik aku yang aku sik boleh lalai dah..aku dah ada tanggungjawab towards myself and others..


p/s: i misz my jack so much

theres the rain flies away..pull through all the coldness inside out of us..

lately here in my beloved hometown Kuching, the rain have it own mood..have it own pattern..which it pours early in the morning, stop during afternoon and yet flush again during the nite. my heart flick and think, 'lifes also have it own pattern,its not shiny bright the entire day but the lightning will struck once in a while to remind that theres the plant need to water,theres the animal thirst drink upon the rain...and theres the heart need to cried out it burdens'..

my mom were sick worried about me when i said i wanted to stay at Terengganu to catch up my final year project because all over the news theres been sign that Terengganu will be flooded with heavily rain pour..yet i stick to her words and here i am seat at my moms food stall watching people flees to their work, brightly faces in the morning, hungry faces during lunch hour and loud talks when talking about shares,stocks and business. i always thought that rain will give fences and borders towards our daily job routine.*aiyo its hard to slip through the rain when ur riding my scooter*..heee..but then i always change my perception just in a flip of second..
people rushing to my moms food stall and orders rising and me and my mom were smiling towards each other.

here we are..standing to our roots..never ever forget thought we are human yet we are helpless but He's always there for us...ever thine..ever mine..

imperfection is a mirror

this story have been send to me through my email by one my frens..sangat2 tersentuh bila membacanya..and hope u guys feel the same too... ^.^

A beautiful story to ponder upon… if everyone in this world learn to accept others’ mistakes and forgive each other… life will move
smoothly.

This is a nice story......

Embracing Imperfection

A story by a boy.

"When I was a little boy, my mom liked to make breakfast food for dinner every now and then. And I remember one night in particular
when she had made breakfast after a long, hard day at work.. On that evening so long ago, my mom placed a plate of eggs, sausage,
and extremely burned toast in front of my dad. I remember waiting to see if anyone noticed! Yet all my dad did was reach for his toast,
smile at my mom, and ask me how my day was at school. I don't remember what I told him that night, but I do remember Watching him
smear butter and jelly on that toast and eat every bite!

When I got up from the table that evening, I remember hearing my mom apologize to my dad For burning the toast. And I'll never forget
what he said : "Baby, I love burned toast."

Later that night, I went to kiss Daddy good night and I asked him if He really liked his toast burned.. He wrapped me in his arms and
said, "Boy, your Momma put in a hard day at work today and she's real tired. And besides-a little burnt toast never hurt anyone!"
You know, life is full of imperfect things..... and imperfect people. I'm not the best housekeeper or cook.'

What I've learned over the years is that learning to accept each other's faults - and choosing to celebrate each other's differences - is
one of the most important keys to creating a healthy, growing, and lasting relationship.

"And that's my prayer for you today. That you will learn to take the good, the bad, and the ugly parts of your life and "lay them at the
feet" of GOD. Because in the end, it's the only One who will be able to give you a relationship where burnt toast isn't a deal-breaker!
We could extend this to any relationship in fact - as understanding is the base of any relationship, be it a husband-wife or parent-child
or friendship!! "

"Don't put the key to your happiness in someone else's pocket but into your own."


credit to:
karya : senandungirama

sway

this feelings tortured me apart
ripping every inch of me
whats left is nothing
suppose..
I'd say that

u have cursed me into this deep forbidden love
yet i know this is us
the truth is there
but the lies are ruling the faith
the tears ain't suffer no more
through the bliss and dust of love..


To be, or not to be, that is the question...(hamlet)


I Am Not Yours
by Sara Teasdale

I am not yours, not lost in you,
Not lost, although I long to be
Lost as a candle lit at noon,
Lost as a snowflake in the sea.

You love me, and I find you still
A spirit beautiful and bright,
Yet I am I, who long to be
Lost as a light is lost in light.

Oh plunge me deep in love, put out
My senses, leave me deaf and blind,
Swept by the tempest of your love,
A taper in a rushing wind.



to whoever i love..i shall keep u here..still in my heart..ever thine ever mine ^.*

sway

Don't stray
Don't ever go away
I should be much to smart for this
You know it gets the better
Of me sometimes
When you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you
Pull me out in time
Don't let me drown
Let me down
I say its all because of you and here I go
Losing my control
I'm practising your name
So I can say it to your face it doesn't seem right
To look you in the eye
And let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth indeed its time
Tell you why
I say its infinately true
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
And there's no cure
And no way to be sure
Why everythings turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired
I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now
It all turns sour
Come sweeten
Every afternoon
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Its all because of you
Its all because of you

crush epilog cinta luka?

here i am at the lab doing 'these' things again..which its the requirement for me to graduate my degree. pagi tadi bangun dengan perasaan yang bercampur baur. so untuk menghilangkan perasaan itu aku pun gi toilet-melabur-. and as usual aku akan membawak sekali magazine sebagai peneman dikala sunyi. tabiat membaca kat toilet ni memang sangat tidak digalakkan. sebab seringkali aku ralit sampai boleh duk sejam kat dalam toilet tuh.sib baik taik x busuk ahahahh..yeke. and selak punya selak magazine tu, aku stop kat helaian cerpen pilihan. its about crush~

yup.crush which we felt when we're not on our feet when we're suddenly saw this beautiful creatures of God~that is man. the thing is, crush usually doesnt last long. ada tertulis in the magazine. penulis tu cakap jangan percaya pada perasaan crush tu sebab ia takkan membawa cinta sejati pada anda.
betol ke?

for sure girls like me slalu sangat crush pada somebody.samada sbb dia good looking atau aura pesona dia yang membuat aku tergila2 kan orang itu. orang yang boleh buat kepala aku berpusing sampai 3 kali tengok dia , itu petanda la tuh~unlest dia memang weirdo..hahah

aku pernah crush dan crush itu membawa perasaan cinta yang amat mendalam kepada aku. skali dua kali tiga kali crush tetap akan membuai rasa sampai kadang-kadang jadi syok sndiri. haish~bahaya tuh..slalu berharap supaya orang yang aku crush tuh akan suka pada aku. tapi kita xleh nak paksa orang tu utk crush kat kita balik kan.but one thing i've learned about man that is diorang boleh sukakan sorang girl yang tergila2kan dia eventhough sebelum tu dia tak pandang langsung pada si gadis.kenapa?just because that girl is a pretty girl. haish merapik dah aku nih.tapi btol wat...

balik pada crush tadi. penulis tu ada kata gak,jangan meyelam di tasik yang keruh sedangkan banyak lagi tasik jernih yang boleh kita selami. sebabnya if crush itu hanya akan menyusahkan kita,membuat kita ternanti-nanti tanpa sebarang harapan,jadi seharusnya kita manfaatkan masa kita dengan mencari cinta yang sebenar.
tapi ada jek orang yang sanggup menunggu bertahun lamanya asalkan dia dapat bersama orang yang dia rasakan mampu hidup bersamanya hingga ke akhir hayat. agungnya cinta begitu. sanggup menunggu,mempercayai si dia sampai sanggup merentas segala tohmahan ,dugaan , godaan, baik dari perempuan mahupun lelaki.
baik soal crush mahupun cinta setiap dari kita mempunyai pengertian kita sendiri. sebab kita yang merasa , kita yang menanggung bebas seksaannya. dan kita jugalah yang tersenyum kegirangan dikelilingi keindahan rasa cinta atau rasa crush itu.
aku sanggup untuk mengulangi setiap detik ketika aku crush dengan seorang lelaki itu. biarlah aku tidak mengetahui dirinya, asalkan aku mampu terawang2 dek panahan senyuman yang menggoda itu.wow.hahahha.lo x xkan leh sampai jatuh tangga hahahha.
well, at least i still got 'you' in my heart..whenever..wherever... ^o^

guardian angel-red jumpsuit

why dont we play truth and dare?
~got d guts?

this is me ..again

pheww...dh lamak sik berblog.
nk kata life sgt hectic ,org lain lagi sibuk..
wat2 sibuk jek aku ni.heeeee.for a few months i've been watching and reading all my frens blog.mengintai saje.xbrani meluahkan apa yang aku rasa.sbb aku xmo jd transparent.being transparent is so called weak?ntah.
living with you has totally make my world trembling again.


thanks to you dear..u managed to make me smile again.


we thought we own that person but we wasn't sure enough if he/she felt the same.
being love and loving someone is totally two different things..so we've heard.
to you..im here..im waiting for you..i'll wait..