sway

this feelings tortured me apart
ripping every inch of me
whats left is nothing
suppose..
I'd say that

u have cursed me into this deep forbidden love
yet i know this is us
the truth is there
but the lies are ruling the faith
the tears ain't suffer no more
through the bliss and dust of love..


To be, or not to be, that is the question...(hamlet)


I Am Not Yours
by Sara Teasdale

I am not yours, not lost in you,
Not lost, although I long to be
Lost as a candle lit at noon,
Lost as a snowflake in the sea.

You love me, and I find you still
A spirit beautiful and bright,
Yet I am I, who long to be
Lost as a light is lost in light.

Oh plunge me deep in love, put out
My senses, leave me deaf and blind,
Swept by the tempest of your love,
A taper in a rushing wind.



to whoever i love..i shall keep u here..still in my heart..ever thine ever mine ^.*

sway

Don't stray
Don't ever go away
I should be much to smart for this
You know it gets the better
Of me sometimes
When you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you
Pull me out in time
Don't let me drown
Let me down
I say its all because of you and here I go
Losing my control
I'm practising your name
So I can say it to your face it doesn't seem right
To look you in the eye
And let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth indeed its time
Tell you why
I say its infinately true
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
And there's no cure
And no way to be sure
Why everythings turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired
I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now
It all turns sour
Come sweeten
Every afternoon
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Its all because of you
Its all because of you

crush epilog cinta luka?

here i am at the lab doing 'these' things again..which its the requirement for me to graduate my degree. pagi tadi bangun dengan perasaan yang bercampur baur. so untuk menghilangkan perasaan itu aku pun gi toilet-melabur-. and as usual aku akan membawak sekali magazine sebagai peneman dikala sunyi. tabiat membaca kat toilet ni memang sangat tidak digalakkan. sebab seringkali aku ralit sampai boleh duk sejam kat dalam toilet tuh.sib baik taik x busuk ahahahh..yeke. and selak punya selak magazine tu, aku stop kat helaian cerpen pilihan. its about crush~

yup.crush which we felt when we're not on our feet when we're suddenly saw this beautiful creatures of God~that is man. the thing is, crush usually doesnt last long. ada tertulis in the magazine. penulis tu cakap jangan percaya pada perasaan crush tu sebab ia takkan membawa cinta sejati pada anda.
betol ke?

for sure girls like me slalu sangat crush pada somebody.samada sbb dia good looking atau aura pesona dia yang membuat aku tergila2 kan orang itu. orang yang boleh buat kepala aku berpusing sampai 3 kali tengok dia , itu petanda la tuh~unlest dia memang weirdo..hahah

aku pernah crush dan crush itu membawa perasaan cinta yang amat mendalam kepada aku. skali dua kali tiga kali crush tetap akan membuai rasa sampai kadang-kadang jadi syok sndiri. haish~bahaya tuh..slalu berharap supaya orang yang aku crush tuh akan suka pada aku. tapi kita xleh nak paksa orang tu utk crush kat kita balik kan.but one thing i've learned about man that is diorang boleh sukakan sorang girl yang tergila2kan dia eventhough sebelum tu dia tak pandang langsung pada si gadis.kenapa?just because that girl is a pretty girl. haish merapik dah aku nih.tapi btol wat...

balik pada crush tadi. penulis tu ada kata gak,jangan meyelam di tasik yang keruh sedangkan banyak lagi tasik jernih yang boleh kita selami. sebabnya if crush itu hanya akan menyusahkan kita,membuat kita ternanti-nanti tanpa sebarang harapan,jadi seharusnya kita manfaatkan masa kita dengan mencari cinta yang sebenar.
tapi ada jek orang yang sanggup menunggu bertahun lamanya asalkan dia dapat bersama orang yang dia rasakan mampu hidup bersamanya hingga ke akhir hayat. agungnya cinta begitu. sanggup menunggu,mempercayai si dia sampai sanggup merentas segala tohmahan ,dugaan , godaan, baik dari perempuan mahupun lelaki.
baik soal crush mahupun cinta setiap dari kita mempunyai pengertian kita sendiri. sebab kita yang merasa , kita yang menanggung bebas seksaannya. dan kita jugalah yang tersenyum kegirangan dikelilingi keindahan rasa cinta atau rasa crush itu.
aku sanggup untuk mengulangi setiap detik ketika aku crush dengan seorang lelaki itu. biarlah aku tidak mengetahui dirinya, asalkan aku mampu terawang2 dek panahan senyuman yang menggoda itu.wow.hahahha.lo x xkan leh sampai jatuh tangga hahahha.
well, at least i still got 'you' in my heart..whenever..wherever... ^o^

guardian angel-red jumpsuit

why dont we play truth and dare?
~got d guts?

this is me ..again

pheww...dh lamak sik berblog.
nk kata life sgt hectic ,org lain lagi sibuk..
wat2 sibuk jek aku ni.heeeee.for a few months i've been watching and reading all my frens blog.mengintai saje.xbrani meluahkan apa yang aku rasa.sbb aku xmo jd transparent.being transparent is so called weak?ntah.
living with you has totally make my world trembling again.


thanks to you dear..u managed to make me smile again.


we thought we own that person but we wasn't sure enough if he/she felt the same.
being love and loving someone is totally two different things..so we've heard.
to you..im here..im waiting for you..i'll wait..

crumpled

when there are no words left to speak, to keep ur mouth shut is better.

moonstruck

on empty days i felt like wanted to just flown away by my feelings,living the emptiness alone.hey i dont want to be friend with u. but then sometimes we just need a minute for our selves, for us to calculate and meticulate again our state of balancing our life, with pleasure or responsibility.
i can be an unresponsible person just like that but when it comes to my true consesus, i knew i have to draw a line for myself. so i wont cross it.again.
sometimes,the need to call up my mom or a gud fren of mine is all that i need,to give my head a knock out before my enemy does. among all my list of enemies, i knew that one most powerfull for i to encounter are me, myself. the bad side of me. the earing on my upper left ear i wear it bcoz i want to pierce it to myself that im no god. im just human. whom that can cross the line anytime that she wants. whom she can ignore others feelings to make her own victory. but then i had to do the piercing so i remember. always.. its my way. i got a friend who did the same thing but in a different kind away. she makes tatoo. aiyo...gosh! if i could do those tatoo huhuuh.
but no matter how we wants to balance our impacable hormone of endrogen and estrogen, i knew that the lessons that we get trough our life, the thoughts that we get from our love ones and also the level of education that we have is some sort of giving much impact to the way we are. but then, one thing for sure.. people change in a flip of second. just like that.

நிநேடீன் minutes

thinking of packing my bags and leave.