moonstruck

on empty days i felt like wanted to just flown away by my feelings,living the emptiness alone.hey i dont want to be friend with u. but then sometimes we just need a minute for our selves, for us to calculate and meticulate again our state of balancing our life, with pleasure or responsibility.
i can be an unresponsible person just like that but when it comes to my true consesus, i knew i have to draw a line for myself. so i wont cross it.again.
sometimes,the need to call up my mom or a gud fren of mine is all that i need,to give my head a knock out before my enemy does. among all my list of enemies, i knew that one most powerfull for i to encounter are me, myself. the bad side of me. the earing on my upper left ear i wear it bcoz i want to pierce it to myself that im no god. im just human. whom that can cross the line anytime that she wants. whom she can ignore others feelings to make her own victory. but then i had to do the piercing so i remember. always.. its my way. i got a friend who did the same thing but in a different kind away. she makes tatoo. aiyo...gosh! if i could do those tatoo huhuuh.
but no matter how we wants to balance our impacable hormone of endrogen and estrogen, i knew that the lessons that we get trough our life, the thoughts that we get from our love ones and also the level of education that we have is some sort of giving much impact to the way we are. but then, one thing for sure.. people change in a flip of second. just like that.